shaded trees

doctors are rad

2008-03-24T16:04:00.000-07:00

went to the Doctor today. he gave me 3 prescriptions for my sickness. should be better by friday (vegas). yay!

i hear there's a new MacBookPro. i might get it. checking it out tomorrow.

i dont know why, but it drives me absolutely nuts when people use the wrong:
there. they're. their
where. were. we're
to. two. too
if anyone needs explanation id be glad to give it TO you!

im a total nerd. i should just go read a book.

i mean..how do you not love the Black Lips?

2008-03-21T13:34:00.001-07:00

stealing is bad

2008-03-19T13:59:00.000-07:00

almost 2 weeks ago my dad's glasses and wallet came in the mail. half burned and all. sweet. not prepared. complete meltdown.

last week i left my debit card in the ATM after depositing some money. someone took $440 out. rad. i was all bummed so sally came and picked me up. we went out to eat. picked up 2 pints of ben and jerrys phish food and also some reeses crunch and snickers. then picked up a ton of movies and watched and ate all night. great saturday night. seriously.

today i am sick. being sick sucks. im excited to feel better though and am getting excited for vegas again. i want to go to the RVCA art show tomorrow, but not sure if ill be feeling up for it. i had to miss sallys birthday dinner last night, because i wasnt feeling well. im bummed about that, but will have tons of hangout time in vegas.

obsessions

2008-03-10T09:56:00.000-07:00

i am obsessed with the thought of going to london lately. cant stop thinking about it. will it come summer 2008? it's possible if i cant get this out of my head.

sunshine

2008-03-08T23:57:00.000-08:00

today i went up on my roof and sat in the sun until the fog rolled in. once i got back in, the fog had seemed to pass. i sat in my window and stared at the yellow wild flowers growing in the neighbor's yards. talked to jordan for her drive up to redding. talked to courtney for almost 2 hours. finally felt at total peace while watching into the wild. id highly recommend it. today was a good day.

tuna. bad for you?

2008-01-26T00:51:00.000-08:00

rachel brought over devin, her new brosef. he informed me that i eat too much tuna and im going to get mercury poisoning and go crazy. sick, lets eat baby tuna only!

ps i will not be giving up tuna. i think a little crazy will be good for me.

i never knew a love like this existed

2008-01-16T10:58:00.000-08:00

2008-01-15T20:03:00.000-08:00

I haven’t been on here in awhile and I should update a lot of stuff, but I probably wont just because I don’t want to talk about a lot of it and I just don’t feel like writing a ton right now. Run-on sentence?

My birthday was on the 29th and my mom came to SF with me and we shopped, she got me a facial and we went out to Tadich Grill (my favorite place in the city). Aw man, it was good. When I got home, Monica, Sam and Kate were all there to wish me Happy Birthday and hangout for a little bit.

The next day Monica, Sam and I went to good old Las Vegas and it was a blast. Didn’t see Sean a whole lot, but I had a really good time with Mon and Sam. I think our overall favorite place was New York New York. Sam and I won money playing blackjack and we all had a nice romantic dinner. We did a lot of walking around and it was definitely nice having a place on the strip (The Caesar, thanks Rachel!). we went to a casino with Sean and some of his friends one night, and went to a typical Vegas show another. New Years we got to see fireworks, which is one of my favorite things in the world. Another night Sam and I went to Club Pure. We had a good time, but I definitely am not a club person. Vegas feels like a different country. Crazy people, drinking on the streets, and bars that never close. Sam had to leave a day early and Monica and I went over to the Stratosphere and did the Big Shot (the thing on the top that shoots you up). Oh my gosh, that was amazing. I want to do it 5 more times. After that we went to Sean’s friend Matt’s house. We all went to a bar downtown and came home early. It was nice being in a house and away from the strip and casinos. The last day was spent eating, watching TV, and playing with Matt’s dog, Bario; a nice change of pace. I’m glad we all got to go and had a blast. The only thing I didn’t see that I’m a little bummed about was an Elvis impersonator, oh well. I’m still waiting for pictures from Sam and Monica…hint hint. Thanks to Sam, Monica, Rachel, RJ, Terry, Sean, Matt, Scotty and Bario!

After Monica and my flight was delayed and almost cancelled due to weather we finally got back to Chico at 4am. When I got there the power was out for 4 days until I finally lost it and went back to San Francisco. It is so nice to be back home. I feel like I was gone for a whole month straight. Since I’ve been back Madeline’s boyfriend, Jason has been here, so I haven’t seen her a whole lot, but that will soon change when Rachel gets back tomorrow and Jason leaves the next day. I’m cooking Rachel a welcome home dinner and hopefully the next day we can walk down to Baker Beach and have a little roommate day/picnic. Aww, it’s good to be home.

one month

2007-12-25T23:29:00.000-08:00

It has been one month since my dad died. I decided I didn’t like the term “passed away” because he didn’t. He wasn’t laying in bed dying… “passing” so-to-speak. He died. Man, I miss my dad. I think the hardest part is every so often I think "Oh, I need to call my dad, he'd think this is hilarious," or "Oh shit, my dad's going to be pissed when he finds out..." until after that split second I realize I can't.

Speaking of dying my old manager and friend, Jimmy just died as well. Good old oxy cotton. Really, another one to that crap? Wow, what a month.

I also had a really bad weekend like…REALLY BAD. But, I’m not going to talk about it, because I’m still pretty embarrassed.

It was nice to see the family even though I was harassed and made fun of most of the time. Bad times are always made better with humor, right? Gosh I hate this last month...well year to be exact. I can’t wait for it to be over and 2008 to be here. VEGAS BABY.

SF here i come

2007-12-08T10:58:00.001-08:00

i am back in the city and i already miss chico, but my bed does feel pretty nice.

my greatest loss yet

2007-12-05T12:47:00.000-08:00

On Sunday November 25, 2007 at about 11:45 my dad died. This was the night of my last post. On his way back to Chico from our dinner in San Francisco, he somehow drifted off the road and hit a tree. He was killed instantly, the right side of his car was shaved off and the car burst into flames. This all happened about 10 minutes from Chico. No one knows what happened, but I think he was changing his CDs. It’s not like him to fall asleep or swerve for an animal, so that is my prediction. The San Francisco Police came to my house at about 4am, and told me. I then had to call my mom and family and tell them. My Aunt picked me up at about 7am and drove me to Chico. It’s now little over a week later. And I feel like it has been a month. Between meeting with Ric Newton (Funeral Director/Dad’s friend/friend’s Dad), putting together the slideshow and music for the service, cleaning out my dad’s place, writing the obituary, seeing my friends, family, and my dad’s friends and just plain…crying. I’ve been very busy. I still feel like it hasn’t quite hit me yet. It doesn’t feel real. It doesn’t feel like I will never see him again.

One of the many great things about my dad was how ridiculously organized he was. He had part of the history of his obituary written, everything in order, the songs he wanted played at his service and even had a goodbye card he had written to a few of us which started with "if you're reading this, it was ovbiously my time to go...". He even had $500 to go to his old favorite college bar, The Oasis, so that everyone could have a round on him. Here are the songs in order:

1. As Tears Go By-Rolling Stones
2. Don’t Think Twice, It’s Alright-Bob Dylan
3. Lovely Cruise-Jimmy Buffett
4. With A Little Help From My Friends-Kenny Rankin
Everyone walks out to:
5. Friends In Low Places-Garth Brooks

I also made a mix that meant a lot to me and my dad, for everyone to walk in to.

1. One Bourbon, One Scotch, One Beer-John Lee Hooker
2. Lay, Lady, Lay-Bob Dylan
3. Angie-The Rolling Stones
4. Here For You-Neil Young

Since the death of my dad I have gotten so many compliments from people about him. He now has a Scholarship named after him at Chico State. Someone paid for the whole service, anonymously. I’ve learned how many organizations he was in, and how many people he helped. I’ve gotten to talk to his old biker buddies and hear stories and even spoke at his service. He was so loved and also showed so much love to so many people, I am so proud of him. I think the hardest part for me will be thinking about how he will never be able to walk me down the isle and never be able to see my kids and be a grandfather. But, apparently it was his time and I will have to accept that. I will post old pictures of him later, but for now I’ll close with what I read at the service.

“MY DAD

I HATE Jimmy Buffet and my dad knew this. He played him, and the Stones all the time. So, when we were reading the list of the songs he wanted played I knew I had to talk after the Buffet song. Most of you know how organized and business-like my dad was, but you should have seen how he already had his memorial planned. He had all his songs picked out in order and listed exactly where they were. And he has had all this done for years! He knew Ric from Lions and they bonded instantly when his daughter, Shawntel, and I were born the same month, and specifically listed him to take care of everything. He even had it planned out to have a $500 tab, on him, at the Oasis after the service and had his history of his obituary written and he said he in quotes didn’t want a lot of “rhetoric” and for us to just “get er done”. So I’ll try to make this short and sweet.

This last week someone sent us a card that said “It’s always too soon to say good-bye to someone you love,” and I know that that’s true whether the person is 95 or 62, like my dad was. Most of you don’t know how amazing he was, I didn’t even know until these last couple years.

When I was little, I LOVED my dad. We played catch, baseball, soccer and basketball together. I loved hanging out with him and its no wonder most of my friends were guys, I was raised like a boy! We camped and fished and hiked. I knew how to make the perfect campfire and how to set up a tent and hook a fish by the time I was 6. Then came high school…I was a teenage asshole and he was, well, just an asshole. We butted heads about everything. Unfortunately, I got my hard headedness from him. And earned the nickname of “Goddamnit Megan” from him. Nothing was fair, I had the earliest curfew, and well, I was an only child so I had no one to blame things on or help divert the attention from me. I think he was the only dad my friends were actually scared of. He told bad jokes and was so sarcastic my friends didn’t know if he was serious or not. And as I grew up, I realized this whole over protective thing wasn’t a new thing.

When I was born my dad boiled all my new toys to kill the bacteria. He cut off all the whiskers of my stuffed animals so I wouldn’t poke my eye. I was the one who could never cross Godman to see my friends and had to run home before the streetlights turned on. And as I was putting together the pictures this week I found one of me in roller skates with a helmet, knee pads, wrist guards AND elbow pads. And NO, I wasn’t outside in the street. I was inside…on the carpet. Once I went to college our whole relationship changed. We got along more like friends and I grew closer to him than ever. The only thing we really didn’t agree about was me transferring up to study art and him wanting me to continue with business…of course. I would come to town and we’d go out to dinner and get ice cream and just walk around and talk. He’d tell me stories and I’d listen to the same story I had heard 5 times already. He always told me things like “you can’t fool a fool” when he thought I was lying and to “ANTICIPATE” things happening, whether it be when I was playing sports or studying for a test. And of course he always told me…”a man has got to know his limitations”.

When we were finalizing the obituary the other day, I was reading everything he was involved in and was amazed. I knew he was involved with Chico State and also the Lions, but geez there were a lot more. The amazing thing to me was he never missed one of my games, performances, art shows and was home for dinner every night. He loved me so much, and I finally realized that these last couple years and am so thankful for that. I am so proud of him and love him so much, I just hope that wasn’t too much rhetoric. He would be so honored to know he now has a scholarship in honor of him and that all of you are here for him. He would have hated all this attention on him, but too bad. He deserves it more than most. I just want to close by thanking all of you for being here for him, my family and I.And I’ll see you all at the O.”

my dad is here

2007-11-25T22:28:00.000-08:00

My dad came to visit me for Thanksgiving. Yesterday he met me at work and we tried to go to this little Bavarian place I thought he’d like, but it was packed, so we headed over to a little family owned Italian place. The food was fair, the service…horrible. We had to ask for the check 4 times. It took longer to get the check than to decide what to eat, order, get our food and eat. But oh well, it’s always good to see ol’ Dad. After that he wanted to see some old bars he used to go to when he lived in the city. We headed to Inner Richmond and walked around before deciding on an old dive bar. This really drunk guy, as in could barely stand up, walked up to me (sitting next to my dad) and asked where I got my good looks from. I told him my dad and pointed to him right next to me. This caught the guy off guard and he left me alone…until my dad went to the restroom. He came up and told me I reminded him of the lion from Wizard of Oz (because of my hair). I said ok, thanks? And my dad came out and we left.

The next day he wanted to go to breakfast so I took him to this amazing place in the Upper Fillmore called the Grove. It reminds me of a lodge at Tahoe. We ate and then he took me to Ikea to get a bookshelf. We got home and put it together, by that time it was dinnertime and we finally got to go to Suppenkuchen (the Bavarian place). It was really good, had a couple beers, he took me home and then he went home. Good to see the Pops.

moped city

2007-11-23T23:13:00.000-08:00

kate wants to buy a moped, fix it up and then sell it to me. rock on!

i love that san francisco is so dog friendly. i love dogs.

Brenton visited me at work today and surprised me with Jonathan Owens!

what a good day. thank you God.

VH1's Best Week Ever

2007-11-22T19:01:00.000-08:00

Yes, like the title says, this past week, including last weekend might be going down in my Best Week Ever hall of fame. It seems my month and a half of Worst Luck Ever, or so I hope, is over. Sam has been here and we had a blast. We have been eating amazing food, drinking mimosas and lots of beer. Unfortunately she left me yesterday. But thanks for visiting and please come back soon. I love you!

Last night was my first night in the house alone since my flat mates have been gone. I didn’t know what to do with myself, so I rearranged the living room by myself and dang, we have some heavy furniture. I’m a little sore but it feels good.

Today Kate came over and we took the mopeds (thanks Brenton) to get some turkey sandwiches and headed off to the beach for a little picnic. It was gorgeous out today.

Kate left, and now I’ll be going on night 2 alone. Tonight will be spent watching amazing movies (Peter Pan on VHS) and horrible ones (Grind) and reading Vogue and Ikea catalogues and probably a little cleaning, maybe some homework if I have time.

what a fabulous week

2007-11-19T10:55:00.000-08:00

Wednesday 11/14
Class was cancelled which meant I got to hang out with Lo for her birthday. I went over to her house and brought her her present (a chia pet and a nice bottle of champagne). Lo, Sally, Eric and I all went to dinner and Dave met us there. It was fabulous. After that we went to see one of Lo’s favorite…Manchester Orchestra, where we met Zach. She bought $50 worth of merch that Steve and I took turns holding for her and then headed over to Delirium, of course.

Thursday 11/15
Lo and I went to NFG, thanks to Steve. We were both tired and there weren’t that many people in the Fillmore. The crowd wasn’t responding well, even though Jordan was trying really hard. I felt bad, we left early.

Friday 11/16
I got up early and headed to Chico. I needed to get out of the city for a minute. Sorry to everyone there. I didn’t call anyone while I was there, except the girls. Went to dinner with my dad. Had drinks with Mon, Jay and Sam.

Saturday 11/17
Got my hair did. Went out to see Jay’s house. RODE HORSES Jay. YAY! Did laundry. Picked up Sam and headed back to the city.

Sunday 11/20
Woke up early and went SAILING. YES! With my Mom, Aunty Karen and some of her friends. Oh man was it pretty. We were on a 40 foot boat with low winds. It was freezing and foggy, but worth it. We sailed over to Angel Island to do a Segway tour then sailed back. The bay was so calm, I actually fell asleep on the way back. I’m going to devote an entire blog to pictures or make a video or something.

Monday 11/21
The new Sigur Ros film is premiering tonight. I hope Sam wants to go!

love and anorexia

2007-11-12T00:16:00.000-08:00

i ran into this picture for some reason and i had forgotten about the whole anorexica phase...this is gross, how is linsey lohan able to walk right there?

i also ran into this one and it made me miss my dog(RIP) like crazy.

quitting and starting fresh

2007-11-11T13:57:00.000-08:00

I am quitting GB this week and starting at Azalea this week. I’ll be working for my friend Ginno at the one of the most amazing boutiques in San Francisco. Too bad I can’t afford to buy half of the clothing in there.

This last Thursday Madeline and I did a little shopping in the Castro. And yes, she got a guys number. And yes, he was gay, but baby steps right? After that I met up with Lo and we walked down to Haight for San Francisco's first RVCA art show at the spankin' new store. Free alcohol! What?! Pure craziness and fabulous art. Kate, Brenton, Sally and Joseph all came and also Sean...an ex. yay. Lo and I stayed for about an hour and then took a cab down to the Warfield to see Paramore. The cab driver decided to tell us true stories of SF cab drivers killing people. Awesome. We ran into Aaron and Zach there. Aaron took us to the side stage for a few songs, but the sound sucks from there. He had to do merch stuff, so Lo and I rocked out with the crowd for the rest of the show. Thanks Aaron for getting us in!

2 nights ago Madeline was out at the Elbo room with Rachel and she met Gordo from Lizzie McGuire.

How cute is he?
I guess he goes to UC Berkeley. I stayed home and watched Transformers. Coincidence? I think not! And I give Transformers a thumbs up. I really liked it and the saturated color through the whole thing was beautiful.

Last night we all went out to Elbo Room, Delirium, and Casa Nova. While I was waiting outside La Cumbre for Rachel and Madeline to get food some girl went to open the door and pretty much body slammed me. When I asked what that was about the guy she was with replied with.."well it IS San Francisco.." I asked what that was supposed to mean. He said that she probably did it on purpose. I asked what that meant and if she was a lesbian or something. He said no and asked where we were from as if we just wouldn’t understand unless we were from San Francisco. Rachel came in at that point and helped out. Eventually he left me alone. I think the girl was just drunk.

Tonight Zach is taking me to see Sondre Lerche.

Man, he is cute. I love me some Scandinavians.

I’m sure most of you have all heard about the huge ship running into the Bay Bridge and spilling oil into the bay. It’s killing wildlife and most of the beaches are closed. It was caused by “human error”. If not, Google it.

nice little ending to the day

2007-11-04T01:01:00.000-07:00

i was driving to work and some dumb lady on her cell phone in her mercedes benz hit me. then tried to say i hit her and that she had a green, along with me. thats so weird that i could have hit her considering my car was tboned. i tried to call the police, but they said they wouldnt come if no one was hurt. interesting. so this streak of bad stuff happening is just never ending. im still trying to figure out what i did to deserve all this. i know its happening for a reason, im just not sure what the reason is yet. when 2 months hits its gotta stop....right?

so i skipped work, called Lo. she brought over a card, movies and food to make me feel better. so amazing. thanks Lo! all when she was feeling like crap from getting sick.

then i came home to quinn drinking, along with the girls. this continued from about 10-12. madeline and rachel split a fifth of morgan's. and we all went to bed. then i heard a lot of crashing and banging. i came out to find madeline in the bathroom, rachel in her room. both puking. so i got waters and paper towels and rubbed backs, quinn laughed. they went back to bed, and now i cant wait to go to bed. 4 hours a night for a week=tired.

visitors galore

2007-11-03T14:45:00.000-07:00

this last week have been amazing and fun and tiring, filled with old and new friends. ill try to make this short and to the point.

monday my class was cancelled so lorrisa dragged me to a metal show her friend tour managing. we looked up the bands and were not looking forward to it at all especially because we were wearing all pastels. we got there and it was AMAZING. seriously. we had the best time. the guys were amazing, the show was soo entertaining. i stole a set list of the headlining band...Behemoth. there was a band from poland and one from france and they were so nice. over all an amazing night.

tuesday ben, trevor and peter came with emery. i got to hangout with them all day and then kate and i went to the show. the aftershow party ended up back in the bus and a dance party was started. it lasted until about 3am and then, peter, ben, kate and i went to jack in the box. ben bought us all $26 worth of food and we came back and ate it all. ben then fell asleep sitting up and we all went to bed. the next day i made then all banana bread and had the same day all over again, but with halloween and girls in some interesting costumes. emery did a hilarious show where they all dressed as their favorite bible character. then more dance party and getting home late.

the next day quinn got here with melee. quinn, chris, gabe and tony all came over. we talked and laughed and had a great time. quinn stayed over and the next day we all went to get coffee and chat it up. quinn helped us move kate and then madelines parents got here and we finished moving kate. after that we went to the melee show and had a great time. the headliner...matt nathanson did journey's dont stop believin and i was so excited we all sang out hearts out. we all went to dennys after and had lots of food. then they drove me and quinn home. and that brings us to today and now quinns staying until sunday.

merry christmas to me

2007-10-21T12:32:00.000-07:00

i think for christmas i am going to ask for a plane ticket to New York. i hope santa makes deals with airlines.

San Francisco

2007-10-19T01:55:00.000-07:00

from home

tonight i was talking to a co-worker about the city and his friend whos coming to visit and what he should take him to do.

i got home and now im thinking, man, what a wonderful city i live in. i am so lucky. i have had a lot of crap going on that i dont even want to get into, but when it comes down to it i am so lucky. thank you!

what i look at from work

pure craziness

2007-10-13T20:40:00.001-07:00

Wow, a lot has been going on lately. Everything that can go wrong pretty much has been. It has actually come to the point where something goes horribly wrong and i just start cracking up...yeah, I think I’m going a little crazy at this point. I’ve been working so much and trying to do homework also that I’m averaging about 3.5-6 hours of sleep a night. Good things have happened too though.

1. I went to see Every Time I Die, which was a complete blast, as always. But I actually took a cab to the show because I was already late and friends were already there. Got to the Warfield $30 later. Once I get there I found out it has been moved to the Fillmore. By this point there’s not way I’m spending another $20 to get back to the other side of town again, so I take the bus. When I finally get there I have to pay for my ticket; the 5 different people who offered to get me in, stuff happened and it didn’t work out. I met up with Zach, Madeline, lo and sally. Sally soon left, so gave me her backstage pass and lo and I started the party. Keith said he'd give every crowd surfer a high five and if he didn’t he'd give them $1 later, so one girl got dropped on the ground and the show stopped to make sure she was ok, but then we continued to rock again.

Lo and her friend's Ryan and Jeff came back to my place. We played cards and everyone feel asleep in my old room and living room.

2. Lo and I went to see The Darjeeling Limited, and oh man, it was good. Since when is Adrien Brody cute? We had the craziest people EVER in the theatre though. I can’t even explain.

3. Went to Courtney and Dave's wedding and had sooo much fun. I lost my ID there, which is weird because I never even took it out of my purse. I think it's the first wedding I’ve been to this year where I didn’t feel slightly depressed at some point. It was good to see family and Dave, welcome to the family! I forgot my camera, so I don't have any pictures to post yet.

4. Jon Reid moved out and i moved into his room. i love it.

5. I have started serving.

6. As much as I don't like rain, I could really go for the sound of it on the window right about now.

stressed

2007-10-02T15:36:00.000-07:00

i am stressed on so many different levels it's ridiculous. im actually at that point where i cant sleep and also wake up a couple HOURS before my alarm goes off. when i googled "stressed" this is what came up and they made me laugh a little to myself.

very long.

2007-09-21T19:55:00.000-07:00

Well, the last couple of weeks have been a bit of a blur. A lot has happened and obviously I haven’t been keeping track of any of it. Ill try to summarize as quickly and accurately as possible.

A couple weeks ago Danny and Gabe drove all the way up from San Luis Obispo to see us. They picked me up from work and we went to meet Kate and lorissa at the Fly bar, we then went to Madrone and danced a little. When we got back to the car, someone had smashed through the window and stole Gabe’s Wii. We were all sad about this and I still feel partly responsible (don’t leave anything sitting in your car in San Francisco). They didn’t take Danny’s new Mac Book or Ipod though, this we were all thankful for. I took them to Haight street to eat of, of course, Citrus club, and we also went to the Mission district and Gabe showed me a store I’d never been to, Paxton’s ___something. We also went to the pirate store next door. Danny and I made Thai food for dinner. Dancing at Delirium. Lo and Theron came over. I made banana pancakes for breakfast. Good times with good people.

danny, kate, gabe

The next week Sean came (haha, he’s going to kill me for that one) to shoot skate stuff, but was kind of hurt so he just hung out with us. We took him to Haight and Citrus Club…surprise. And went out every night. Met up with Brenton, Logan and TJ, now Joseph. Played pool with Man. Went to Delirium, ate sausages at Gestault Haus.

There was also another wedding in there. Jenny Brooks (family friend and used to baby sit me…back when moon shoes were SICK) and Cole. The day before we got up early and went to the flower market to get all the flowers for the wedding.

after we worked all day to help set up the wedding we had 40 minutes to go home and change, but it was beautiful.

random panty hose by the dance floor. later found out they were Jane Brook's (mother of the bride)

Dick and Jane (yes I'm serious. Jane is one of my mom's best friends. she's hilarious and inspiring)

they also had a photobooth. my mom and I.

my mom and her fabulous friends.

After those pretty major events I was tired, plus I had school and work on top of those things. I was trying to concentrate my energy on that when all of the sudden…Monday night I start feeling sick. Tuesday I wake up and have the full blown flu. Well, I went to school anyway…it’s a 6 hour class and it’s too early in the year to miss school. Went straight home and started freezing up, and woke up sweating like it was Chico in the summer. I went to work yesterday, felt like I was going to die. I spent yesterday on the couch watching Grey’s Anatomy and talked to my parents. When I was talking to my mom I started crying. Man I sucks to be in so much pain with no one to try to make you feel better. These are the times to have a mom around. She offered to come pick me up. Anyway, its now Friday and I’m still feeling like crap. I also haven’t been sleeping for longer than an hour at a time, could be why I started crying from just pure exhaustion. I took myself to the Dr. but they didn’t accept insurance…rates start at $240 and go up from there. That’s without meds. So I left. I went to the USF Hospital, but they said I couldn’t be helped because I didn’t go to school there. So I went and got groceries, I’m not very good at resting I’ve realized. I have been busy watching Narnia, Pride and Prejudice and Grey’s Anatomy. Sam and friends come tomorrow. Man I hope I feel better by that time.

Congratulations if you got all the way through it.

treasure island music festival

2007-09-17T21:28:00.000-07:00

hmm, I can't seem to find a blog where i wrote about the Treasure Island Music Festival that Zach took me too, so I'll write about it right now...Zach and I met up and went to the place where they have the limo buses to take everyone across the bay and made our way through crowds of people. He had the VIP pases from work, so that was pretty cool because we could actually just stand on the side and see. they also had bleachers for VIP and a shaded area with food and drinks and really comfy chairs. we had a good time and saw everyone we wanted to see. here's the link...Treasure Island Music Festival i would totally go again.

here are some pictures i took from my phone up in the bleachers of how big the crowd was for Modest Mouse...HUGE!
from right to left

red is the new black

2007-08-26T20:38:00.000-07:00

weddings galore

2007-08-26T01:25:00.000-07:00

Today was my cousin, Courtney’s wedding shower. It was wonderful. I loved meeting her friends and being with family. all us girls (and Brian, her other bridesmaid, not gay) met up at her house and talked and snacked and played one game and ate fabulous cupcakes. Friends all left and the guys came back. We all went out to a wonderful dinner at Los Toros and Dave and Courtney treated everyone to dinner! They are so amazing, I’m glad to have Dave as an addition to the family. He fits right in. i have one wedding to go to Sept. 8, then Coutney's in October and then I'm done this year.

Also, I didn’t forget to bring bad weather. It got cloudy here in LA and even sprinkled a bit. I am like some sort of scientific phenomenon. Other examples of me bringing bad weather include:

1. Moving to San Diego-most rain since the early 1900s
2. Going to Hawaii-beautiful while my mom was there...flash floods when I arrived.
3. Going to Chico this summer-clouds up and cools down. It should be 95-100 every day.
4. LA-raining in the summer

My mom suggested that I visit a place with a drought.

Also, my new thing is I can’t sleep. I think I’ve gotten about 6 hours in the last 2 days. I even tried Tylenol PM, but it didn’t help at all.

Brenton is FINALLY 21

2007-08-24T21:19:00.000-07:00

yesterday was Brenton's 21st Birthday!!! so kate and i met up with him and his friend Logan.

we were walking there when i realized i forgot our card/present, so we had to walk all the back back.

creepin

Brenton being sexxxy

kate borrowed Brenton's pen to add to the bathroom

yuck

MYSPACE!!!

birthday boy!

kate and dave dartin it up. we got in trouble for adding to the walls...even though they were already covered

im just that good

good form

Logan

brenton's drinking face

kate's drinking face

ceiling

celebrating friends

2007-08-19T20:22:00.000-07:00

the main reason we were in Chico was because our awesome friends Renee and Josh were getting married.

kate and i being creeps

kate. taking care of business

kitty KATe

ladies man/DJ/ben

renee the stunning bride

sara dancing with ben (not pictured)

the fellas featuring ben's dad in the background

ben saved me a dance..."and that's exactly why i wore these"

mary creepin it up

the nightmare of a desktop

joel and kate dancing

oooo

ahhhhh

Bear hole

2007-08-17T15:06:00.000-07:00

Bear hole is a must while in Chico during the summer and it's always hard to explain it to people, so here are some pictures....

the walk down

the view before you jump

kate, after she jumped

davis

2007-08-13T17:17:00.000-07:00

well, this last week i have been laying kind of low. i've been going out but coming home early. i think these last couple months are catching up to me. this last wednesday we had adventures which you can read about on our adventure wednesday blog. and then i went to see an old friend in Davis...Andrew. here are some pictures from the night.

this is andrew. he was one of my best friends through high school. he taught me about hardcore music.

this is Jessie. we bonded. she's studying microbiology or something like that.

love. went horribly wrong later, but i wont get into that.

before.

after.

then, of course...skateboarding

near fall

i can't wait to go home to chico.

monay

2007-08-07T23:50:00.000-07:00

i have been working everyday and it's killing me, but i need the money so i hope it's worth it. it's been so back and forth about me going to Seattle lately, i'll excited just to know if im going or not. there has been horrible, depressing weather and fog lately, even downtown. i makes to yearn for the chico trip to hurry up and be here already. i cant wait for the heat!

last night lo, steve and i went to Parkside and watched a crazy metal band. i actually think the car rides were the best part of the night, with singing journey and other guilty pleasures not to be named.

this is all i have to say...

2007-08-02T01:55:00.001-07:00

Heima Film

thank you danny

productivity

2007-07-31T13:55:00.000-07:00

Last night we went to Brenton's friend's house...Aaron Lee for his 21st. and it was surprisingly low-key. We did watch this about 20 times though. Wait for the 2:06 mark.

"jon what is that?"
"well, it was a peace sign. but it turned into a F*CK YEAH!"

kahim, brenton, kate and i (crackin it up)

brenton, jon, me, kate and marcus youtubein it

brenton and kate featuring pizza.
(last three photos all taken by the birthday boy, aaron lee)

I'm working on being more productive before school starts. I’ve been running again lately. I cleaned out my room. I’m working on my drawing for shelly again. Today I’m going to work on my wall of inspiration. oh! I’ve been watching some of Shark Week!! ahhhh! I love shark week!

Kate and I are getting our pets tomorrow. They are really hard to find.

Oh and by the way, I now have a Blackberry so if any of you have one we can be Blackberry messenger buddies now. Yay.

2007-07-30T21:41:00.000-07:00

today, kate and i went to costco. after we bought stuff, we stopped by the food area. kate got a hot dog and iced tea. i got a polish dog, coke AND frozen yogurt because im a little fat kid.

we are working on our adventure Wednesday blog and it will be up soon. i found this quote that i had written down some time ago..."convincing’s just an artist's way of lying." i love it.

im now waiting for brenton and jon to get here to go brenton's friends 21st. WOOO PARTAY! should be interesting.

do you want to come home with me tonight?

2007-07-30T01:12:00.001-07:00

last night kate and i went to her friend Owen's house for what was supposed to be a dinner party, but it ended up being more of a social gathering with food. not a full out party, but not dinner. it turned into everyone had to take at least one tequila shot. then we had wine, then more people took shots, then came the Jameson and coke. we ate, drank, laughed. OH! and drew. Owen put out a paper and watercolor and colored pencils and we got to all draw and paint. kate drew a hippo and i drew a shark (inspired by a shark show id watched earlier, man i love sharks). we then had to leave and go to our friend Geoff's because he was having people over too. we stayed and talked for awhile and then matt and friend picked us up and brought us home. tonight at work one of my co-workers asked if id go home with him...i started laughing and when he didnt, i asked if he was serious, which apparently he was. i guess he thought we had bonded over our earlier conversation about how we both like our ice cream softer as opposed to the rock solid stuff. so after i thought about how 1. dont go home with guys. 2. he has a 4 year old daughter 3. i had to go to a friends show. i quickly said no. so he replied with.."alright, ill just ask again some other time." so after work i snuck out with out anyone really noticing and went straight to the Make Amends show. i got there in time to see their last 2 songs. YAY. i rarely get to see them play so i was excited. then i passed up a ride home to see the last band called Seize the Night. they were amazing! i loved them. i thought i was totally over hardcore music, except of course my one weakness cough every time i die cough cough, but they totally sucked me in. THEN i got a phone call on the way home and my buddy jonathan owens is in town! YAY

ps owen send me pictures woman!

home by 4

2007-07-27T16:00:00.000-07:00

well, kate and i had quite the adventure last night. it started out by having one of our many dates with each other. we went to citrus club and it was amazing...as always.

blurry kate at citrus club

we then came home and popped open some champagne and then we heard this alarm of sorts going off. so kate decided it was these neighbors who always wake me up stomping up and down the stairs early every morning. she wanted to throw stuff at their window. so, naturally she threw a marmite lid and also all of jon's frozen halibut also. great idea, so then we hopped on the bus to meet up with bahram and friend at the fly bar.

after a couple bars, going down to the mission and staying until last call, we made out way home. we met a guy who then invited himself to stay with us, which was not flying by us. after him following us for about an hour, we finally got rid of him. we then talked to sean fer dayz and made it home at about 4am.

old pictures

2007-07-26T14:30:00.000-07:00

here are some old pictures that i want to post but dont know where to put them because i took them on an old film camera so they are over a couple months time. oh, and by the way...all the "black and white" pictures I've posted were supposed to be printed in black and white, but the photo place made them some sepia tone so that's what's going on there.

kate at the beach. she's probably going to kill me for this one.

my mommy and i

Baker beach view of the west. this beach is about 6 blocks from us.

Baker beach. view of the east.

kate my mom's. she's probably going to hate this one too, but i like so too bad kate!

jerry bowling...nice form. he claims he hasn't been in years...riiiiight.

me and my fabulous form

lorissa just got a strike

LA is a bust

2007-07-26T13:50:00.000-07:00

so Kate and i eventually left her grandmas and headed to my cousin Courtney’s. Dave took us all out to dinner at a Japanese place where the cook the food in front of you. it was amazing. ill post pictures when she sends me some...hint hint. we swam in her pool lots and went hot tubbing past pool hours because we are complete rebels. we met Kevin at this bar called cha cha lounge in silverlake. got to meet his friend Alex from NY. there's a pretty funny story about when kate met him inside and i guess ill tell you if you ask, but only in person. the next day we went to Melrose and then to the Amoeba on Sunset and then found the Elliot Smith wall and took pictures. after we got back dave and courtney took out out to dinner AGAIN at some Jewish place called Brent's. the portions were HUGE and i was good.

the next day we drove down the Long Beach, where i guess they were having some volleyball tournament. but we drove past it and went the beach and had ourselves a little cocktail picnic. boosh just so happened to NOT be in long beach when we were so that was lame. the beach was the crappiest one i have ever been to. there were no waves, the water was really murky and i couldnt even see my feet when the water was to my knees. it was gross.

Then we went to some mexican place on 4th st and it SUCKED. kate got a burrito, which was probably good, but i got a tostada with shrimp and all it was was shrimp with chopped tomatoes and cilantro. and i pretty much like everything EXCEPT cilantro. and man, it was COVERED in cilantro. kate couldn’t even eat it because it had tomatoes. after that we went home and decided to go back to SF. the next morning i went swimming again and we slowly packed up and drove home. so here we are in SF and have never been happier to be back. LA is cool and all but not when it's burning hot and we are getting lost constantly, next time we'll need a tour guide.

i have also added pictures to previous blogs so go ahead and check those out too.

the real OC

2007-07-19T13:17:00.000-07:00

i drove down to Fullerton 2 nights ago.staying here with kate's parents and grams and man, it is hot. so here i am..in orange county. these people here are ridiculous. and they are all horrible drivers. we must have gotten lost about 5 times yesterday. we drove about 5 hours just to walk around for about one hour. kate is still trying to get her tattoo but not having an ID is posing a problem. so, we went down to hunnington beach, but of course didnt end up there. we ended up in newport, so walked around, got some koosies that are pretty amazing. we'll have to get pictures.

we are heading to Heroes in a minute for lunch and then off to either long beach or chatsworth to stay with my cousin Courtney. oh and Dave too! and the 2 cats. shout outs!

more slacking

2007-07-06T23:39:00.000-07:00

so, i guess im really bad at keeping this updated. woops. anyway...wednesday adventure day now officially has it's own blogspot found at...Adventure Wednesdays. we've been having more fun lately. i cant even think of what ill ive done. sunday we went to Pop's and enjoyed some amazing karaoke. we also danced up a storm at delirium one of those nights too. tuesday night we went with sally to this hotel to meet some of her friends and i ended up going swimming, which was amazing. man i miss swimming in the summer. then some of brentons friends stayed the night. wednesday adventure day we went down to the island to meet for wild in the streets and took some pictures.

wild in the streets kids

sean

reggie

kate

this little kid was posing for everyone. it was pretty adorable.

then, kate and i went to the mission and ate some great Vietnamese then went home. a couple hours later we went back to mission and dolores park and met brenton, his dad and brother there. sally soon joined. that place was sooo packed. i saw way too many people i knew. saw gino, clay, arial, kahim, jonah, geoff, abe, as well as many others. kevin (aka reggie, as he introduced himself), and sean came, along with their posse. we all hung out, watched fire works, then went to delirium. after awhile there went back to the hotel again and swam more until we got kicked out. it was a very enjoyable day. except for the fact that i didnt have a hot dog, watermelon or beer! whats up with that?

mary also came and stayed with us before she left for NY and then Europe.

Mary

Jesse (co-worker) and typical face

katy kate

kate on the bus. YAY we love being on the Bus! not.

it's been too long.

2007-06-29T01:12:00.000-07:00

wow, yeah I’m kind of a slacker. I’ve been super busy and not busy all at the same time. it's stressful. anyway...last week's Wednesday adventure day we went to Japan town with Brenton. it was fun, only the sushi wasn’t that good. can you imagine?

brenton after Sapporo.

kate after saki with big green making an appearance.

right before brenton killed kate.

but then i killed brenton for killing kate and they both came back japanese

no parking day or nite

then we went back to his house and watched skate videos. ive read 3 books since my last blog. and kate got a moped. it's amazing. I’m in love and have to have one. we went out to eat Thai with sally and Larissa a couple times. and helped Larissa put together her Ikea furniture. my dad came into town and we went to a giants vs padres game. the giants lost. surprising huh? the next day we went to haight to eat at the pork store but they were filming a movie there. I’ve tried to go there at least 4 times and still have no success. we also went to the botanical gardens which we were disappointed in. then he took kate and i to Berkeley for our Wednesday adventure day and kate and i shopped on telegraph (where all the hippies hung out, including my mom) all day. it was great, we found some cool stuff. then we came back and brenton and david came over after skating i threw grapes up for everyone to catch for about 40 minutes and they took kate’s moped for a spin. Later, kate and i were headed to Pop's on her moped and it died on us and Eric had to come save us. kate and i ended up having to push it to his house and he has to work on. it was a very sad and cold night.

grandma's give good advice

2007-06-19T00:28:00.000-07:00

yesterday, i took BART to the east bay (walnut creek to be exact) to see my grandma and mom. (my mom drives down to the bay area every other week to see her and sometimes i come too.) we went out to lunch and talked a whole lot. my grandma told me stories during the war when her husband was gone and she had to work at the oil refinery and raise the kids (5). she told me about how men would come back and they would have to teach them their jobs and these men would get paid twice what they did for the same job. when the men came back they were automatically out of jobs.

she also told me about the women's rights movements and how she wished shed been apart of them. i also got lots of advice about men, which im not going to mention. when i got back i went by my favorite book shop called Green Apple. it is amazing...ask and ill take you there. kate wanted to go look at a moped Geoff's roommate was selling and i went with. we got into long conversations with the roommate (Eric) about drive-ins and the ex-publication, now website he works for http://Chow Magazine and were then going to go crabbing. well, it got late and i decided to go to bed instead.

today i finished a book (Shop Girl by Steve Martin) when i woke up, (which i was going to read in it's entirety yesterday, had it not been for the moped) then i decided id draw and paint while listening to Robert Johnson (check him out). i finally made something for Brenton, since he made me something a month or two ago. after that i made myself some salmon and rice and watched a documentary on John Lennon. THEN i read another book (Franny and Zooey by JD Salinger). now, i think ill go to bed. i am happy with today.

i need this

2007-06-16T13:33:00.000-07:00

the other day Geoff came over and we all went out to lunch. that was nice, i havent seen geoff in too long. and then he paid for our lunches! what a gentleman.

yesterday, after work, brenton came over with some skate videos. we all chatted and laughed and watched and cringed and were amazed. i made dinner. we watched more and discussed proven facts. we went and got ice cream and i became absolutely enamored with super 8 video cameras. i need one.

http://www.artsington.com/video/super8summersk6.mp4

planet parties

2007-06-15T00:17:00.000-07:00

last night there was a party for Planet magazine's new issue. free drinks with rum from 7 til 9. kate and i got there at about 8:55. we met gino and clay and some of their friends there. gino and friends had to leave shortly. clay stayed and danced the night away with us. we met this guy, Michael...he was the key gay guy in the group next to us. he came over and danced with us, but i guess he was sent over to get kate and i to go talk to the guys over there. we said no, that they can come talk to us. well, that didnt happen. but Michael stayed and danced. then zach, janice and her friend, joel came. we danced for a little bit then left. me, kate and clay danced our little hearts out until just about closing (2am). heres a little video of michael, clay and kate.

a day alone

2007-06-12T19:24:00.000-07:00

yesterday was also a beatiful day in san francisco. i layed on the roof in the sun, went for a run and then kate and i went to costco and trader joes. we were driving there and saw gushing water, it was exciting...

it was a very productive day. i then met kate and jones down at solstice (apparently monday is half off botttles of wine day). by the time i got there they had ordered their second bottle and i had a glass and a half and had a small dish. there was a small dog outside the window some mean man had left and watched from inside. it was shaking and scared and he just had an evil grin as he watched it for an hour. we finished up and i met zach at the fillmore. jen was also there with one of her friends. she told stories of growing up together and they were very entertaining to me. i love that girl.

today was a day about me, myself and i. i woke up, went to work and then walked over to the SFMOMA(san francisco museum of modern art) by myself. then, i walked to the bus and went a restaurant i had been wanted to try. let me tell you...it was amazing. i got the salmon with lebonese potatoes and a latte. it was glorious. then, of course, i had to get dessert. i got a piece of the flourless chocolate cake and oh my gosh...one of the best things ive had in my life. i am going back just to get that again. i really enjoyed the day by myself, i think ill do it more often.

wednesdays off

2007-06-07T17:08:00.000-07:00

well, i now have every wednesday off so kate and i decided there should be a new adventure every wednesday. so, on this last one we decided to go to good ol' Reno, NV. the Biggest Little City in the World. we end up leaving around 10:30 and get to the Sierra's and it starts raining (great, we're in tanks and jeans). only wait..it's not raining...it's snowing! kates starts taking pictures with my camera but then finds out i forgot my memory card at home. so we continue going and looking in awe at the snow in june. finally, 3.5 hours later we get to reno. it is glorious! it is like the old pictures of las vegas. so without a map we figure the city out and follow kates guide to vintage shopping. everything works out great and i get lots and lots of lennon albums and other greatness. kate got some records as well, and also a book case and some clothes. next stop...BUFFET. and guess what! it was crab and steak night at the Atlantis! the crab was magical and tasty and we made a mess of ourselves and ate until we were going to pop, then realized why Americans are so fat. we decided we would only gamble $6 and went off to explore. that only lasted about 5 minutes. and we went back to the car exhausted and anxious to get back to smoke free California.

just 3.5 more hours to SF.

leaving the warmth

2007-06-03T09:00:00.000-07:00

well, it is now time to say goodbye to chico and the glory of the summer heat and doing nothing but swimming all day. Tubing is a very wonderful and beautiful experience. i enjoyed it very much. during my trip i got to hangout with ben lots, see jon play(as always), chillaxed with the brighten boys, and see my girls. my dad and i went to an amazing dinner and also went wine tasting. i cooked a scallop and fried eggplant dinner from my new Curtis Stone cook book for my mom. sam's birthday was great until some unwelcome guests came, but all was good and we eventually made our way downtown. sam had way too much to drink and ended up throwing up and crying. she wasnt allowed into a bar because she was too drunk. so, naturally, we had to try to get her into another. we did, and quite shortly left.

i got to see kelsey. that was a treat. i havent seen her in ages. shes one of my oldest friends and i love that eveything falls back to where we left off. i am so lucky to have the friends and family i have.

im not ready to go back to the fog.

home sweet home

2007-05-29T18:16:00.000-07:00

Today is my 3rd day back home in Chico and I'm loving it. It is so gorgeous here. yesterday i woke up and my mom fixed me breakfast (fried egg, bacon, and peach pancakes). she is so amazing, I'm so lucky. then i went to my God mom's house and talked with Shelly and Phil, they crack me up, i love them so much. after i drove back to get my mom and we went to see Georgia Rule. i was totally against this idea because of my dislike of Linsey Lohan but it was a lot better than i expected. after the movie i walked downtown by myself and got some chai tea at the Naked Lounge and then went and wrote in my journal under a shady tree.

i ended up laying down and staring at the leaves above me until kate called and wanted me to come to her family bbq. she picked me up and i got there just in time to eat leftovers of fresh fruit and beef. it was amazing. i also made it in time for a glass of wine and a piece of Hersey's Chocolate pie...mmmm. THEN kate's mom had a surprise for me...Cooking With Curtis Stone. i was so excited i think i jumped up and down. Kate told me her niece was quite the artist so i asked to see her work and she happily showed me. Let me tell you..she is good. her specialty is drawing Pixies and then land they live in. they are very magical and i told her they reminded me of Fern Gully (please watch this movie if you've never seen it). after a while Alex and Shane came and picked us up and we headed to a BBQ in the park. a bunch of us sat around and talked, everyone talking at once, as usual. my straw fedora was a huge hit. i think everyone wore it for at least 10 minutes that night. i took pictures and people yelled at me to stop because the flash was so bright and i finally did after about an hour. Ben needed his Vespa so he pumped me on the front of Peter's cruiser and Kate followed on Tim's. I don't think I've been that scared in a long time. i kept having flash backs of the last time i did that and falling forward (i still have rocks in my hand..ask and ill show you). we eventually all went back to Travis' house and continued catching up. it was a goodnight.

Today i went to lunch with Monica, Sam and Kate at Kona's. we happened to have perfect timing with hitting the high school's lunch. but waited it through and it was sooo worth it. it was just what i needed. after that Sam and i went and say by the pool. man it was hot and that pool was freezing. i got to see my dad too. he gave me the usual comics out of the newspapers that remind him of me. we are going to dinner in about 15 minutes. I'm excited.