doctors are rad

went to the Doctor today. he gave me 3 prescriptions for my sickness. should be better by friday (vegas). yay!

i hear there's a new MacBookPro. i might get it. checking it out tomorrow.

i dont know why, but it drives me absolutely nuts when people use the wrong:
there. they're. their
where. were. we're
to. two. too
if anyone needs explanation id be glad to give it TO you!

im a total nerd. i should just go read a book.

i mean..how do you not love the Black Lips?

stealing is bad

almost 2 weeks ago my dad's glasses and wallet came in the mail. half burned and all. sweet. not prepared. complete meltdown.

last week i left my debit card in the ATM after depositing some money. someone took $440 out. rad. i was all bummed so sally came and picked me up. we went out to eat. picked up 2 pints of ben and jerrys phish food and also some reeses crunch and snickers. then picked up a ton of movies and watched and ate all night. great saturday night. seriously.

today i am sick. being sick sucks. im excited to feel better though and am getting excited for vegas again. i want to go to the RVCA art show tomorrow, but not sure if ill be feeling up for it. i had to miss sallys birthday dinner last night, because i wasnt feeling well. im bummed about that, but will have tons of hangout time in vegas.

obsessions

i am obsessed with the thought of going to london lately. cant stop thinking about it. will it come summer 2008? it's possible if i cant get this out of my head.

sunshine

today i went up on my roof and sat in the sun until the fog rolled in. once i got back in, the fog had seemed to pass. i sat in my window and stared at the yellow wild flowers growing in the neighbor's yards. talked to jordan for her drive up to redding. talked to courtney for almost 2 hours. finally felt at total peace while watching into the wild. id highly recommend it. today was a good day.

tuna. bad for you?

rachel brought over devin, her new brosef. he informed me that i eat too much tuna and im going to get mercury poisoning and go crazy. sick, lets eat baby tuna only!



ps i will not be giving up tuna. i think a little crazy will be good for me.

i never knew a love like this existed

I haven’t been on here in awhile and I should update a lot of stuff, but I probably wont just because I don’t want to talk about a lot of it and I just don’t feel like writing a ton right now. Run-on sentence?

My birthday was on the 29th and my mom came to SF with me and we shopped, she got me a facial and we went out to Tadich Grill (my favorite place in the city). Aw man, it was good. When I got home, Monica, Sam and Kate were all there to wish me Happy Birthday and hangout for a little bit.

The next day Monica, Sam and I went to good old Las Vegas and it was a blast. Didn’t see Sean a whole lot, but I had a really good time with Mon and Sam. I think our overall favorite place was New York New York. Sam and I won money playing blackjack and we all had a nice romantic dinner. We did a lot of walking around and it was definitely nice having a place on the strip (The Caesar, thanks Rachel!). we went to a casino with Sean and some of his friends one night, and went to a typical Vegas show another. New Years we got to see fireworks, which is one of my favorite things in the world. Another night Sam and I went to Club Pure. We had a good time, but I definitely am not a club person. Vegas feels like a different country. Crazy people, drinking on the streets, and bars that never close. Sam had to leave a day early and Monica and I went over to the Stratosphere and did the Big Shot (the thing on the top that shoots you up). Oh my gosh, that was amazing. I want to do it 5 more times. After that we went to Sean’s friend Matt’s house. We all went to a bar downtown and came home early. It was nice being in a house and away from the strip and casinos. The last day was spent eating, watching TV, and playing with Matt’s dog, Bario; a nice change of pace. I’m glad we all got to go and had a blast. The only thing I didn’t see that I’m a little bummed about was an Elvis impersonator, oh well. I’m still waiting for pictures from Sam and Monica…hint hint. Thanks to Sam, Monica, Rachel, RJ, Terry, Sean, Matt, Scotty and Bario!

After Monica and my flight was delayed and almost cancelled due to weather we finally got back to Chico at 4am. When I got there the power was out for 4 days until I finally lost it and went back to San Francisco. It is so nice to be back home. I feel like I was gone for a whole month straight. Since I’ve been back Madeline’s boyfriend, Jason has been here, so I haven’t seen her a whole lot, but that will soon change when Rachel gets back tomorrow and Jason leaves the next day. I’m cooking Rachel a welcome home dinner and hopefully the next day we can walk down to Baker Beach and have a little roommate day/picnic. Aww, it’s good to be home.

one month

It has been one month since my dad died. I decided I didn’t like the term “passed away” because he didn’t. He wasn’t laying in bed dying… “passing” so-to-speak. He died. Man, I miss my dad. I think the hardest part is every so often I think "Oh, I need to call my dad, he'd think this is hilarious," or "Oh shit, my dad's going to be pissed when he finds out..." until after that split second I realize I can't.

Speaking of dying my old manager and friend, Jimmy just died as well. Good old oxy cotton. Really, another one to that crap? Wow, what a month.

I also had a really bad weekend like…REALLY BAD. But, I’m not going to talk about it, because I’m still pretty embarrassed.

It was nice to see the family even though I was harassed and made fun of most of the time. Bad times are always made better with humor, right? Gosh I hate this last month...well year to be exact. I can’t wait for it to be over and 2008 to be here. VEGAS BABY.

SF here i come

i am back in the city and i already miss chico, but my bed does feel pretty nice.

my greatest loss yet

On Sunday November 25, 2007 at about 11:45 my dad died. This was the night of my last post. On his way back to Chico from our dinner in San Francisco, he somehow drifted off the road and hit a tree. He was killed instantly, the right side of his car was shaved off and the car burst into flames. This all happened about 10 minutes from Chico. No one knows what happened, but I think he was changing his CDs. It’s not like him to fall asleep or swerve for an animal, so that is my prediction. The San Francisco Police came to my house at about 4am, and told me. I then had to call my mom and family and tell them. My Aunt picked me up at about 7am and drove me to Chico. It’s now little over a week later. And I feel like it has been a month. Between meeting with Ric Newton (Funeral Director/Dad’s friend/friend’s Dad), putting together the slideshow and music for the service, cleaning out my dad’s place, writing the obituary, seeing my friends, family, and my dad’s friends and just plain…crying. I’ve been very busy. I still feel like it hasn’t quite hit me yet. It doesn’t feel real. It doesn’t feel like I will never see him again.

One of the many great things about my dad was how ridiculously organized he was. He had part of the history of his obituary written, everything in order, the songs he wanted played at his service and even had a goodbye card he had written to a few of us which started with "if you're reading this, it was ovbiously my time to go...". He even had $500 to go to his old favorite college bar, The Oasis, so that everyone could have a round on him. Here are the songs in order:

1. As Tears Go By-Rolling Stones
2. Don’t Think Twice, It’s Alright-Bob Dylan
3. Lovely Cruise-Jimmy Buffett
4. With A Little Help From My Friends-Kenny Rankin
Everyone walks out to:
5. Friends In Low Places-Garth Brooks

I also made a mix that meant a lot to me and my dad, for everyone to walk in to.

1. One Bourbon, One Scotch, One Beer-John Lee Hooker
2. Lay, Lady, Lay-Bob Dylan
3. Angie-The Rolling Stones
4. Here For You-Neil Young

Since the death of my dad I have gotten so many compliments from people about him. He now has a Scholarship named after him at Chico State. Someone paid for the whole service, anonymously. I’ve learned how many organizations he was in, and how many people he helped. I’ve gotten to talk to his old biker buddies and hear stories and even spoke at his service. He was so loved and also showed so much love to so many people, I am so proud of him. I think the hardest part for me will be thinking about how he will never be able to walk me down the isle and never be able to see my kids and be a grandfather. But, apparently it was his time and I will have to accept that. I will post old pictures of him later, but for now I’ll close with what I read at the service.



“MY DAD

I HATE Jimmy Buffet and my dad knew this. He played him, and the Stones all the time. So, when we were reading the list of the songs he wanted played I knew I had to talk after the Buffet song. Most of you know how organized and business-like my dad was, but you should have seen how he already had his memorial planned. He had all his songs picked out in order and listed exactly where they were. And he has had all this done for years! He knew Ric from Lions and they bonded instantly when his daughter, Shawntel, and I were born the same month, and specifically listed him to take care of everything. He even had it planned out to have a $500 tab, on him, at the Oasis after the service and had his history of his obituary written and he said he in quotes didn’t want a lot of “rhetoric” and for us to just “get er done”. So I’ll try to make this short and sweet.

This last week someone sent us a card that said “It’s always too soon to say good-bye to someone you love,” and I know that that’s true whether the person is 95 or 62, like my dad was. Most of you don’t know how amazing he was, I didn’t even know until these last couple years.

When I was little, I LOVED my dad. We played catch, baseball, soccer and basketball together. I loved hanging out with him and its no wonder most of my friends were guys, I was raised like a boy! We camped and fished and hiked. I knew how to make the perfect campfire and how to set up a tent and hook a fish by the time I was 6. Then came high school…I was a teenage asshole and he was, well, just an asshole. We butted heads about everything. Unfortunately, I got my hard headedness from him. And earned the nickname of “Goddamnit Megan” from him. Nothing was fair, I had the earliest curfew, and well, I was an only child so I had no one to blame things on or help divert the attention from me. I think he was the only dad my friends were actually scared of. He told bad jokes and was so sarcastic my friends didn’t know if he was serious or not. And as I grew up, I realized this whole over protective thing wasn’t a new thing.

When I was born my dad boiled all my new toys to kill the bacteria. He cut off all the whiskers of my stuffed animals so I wouldn’t poke my eye. I was the one who could never cross Godman to see my friends and had to run home before the streetlights turned on. And as I was putting together the pictures this week I found one of me in roller skates with a helmet, knee pads, wrist guards AND elbow pads. And NO, I wasn’t outside in the street. I was inside…on the carpet. Once I went to college our whole relationship changed. We got along more like friends and I grew closer to him than ever. The only thing we really didn’t agree about was me transferring up to study art and him wanting me to continue with business…of course. I would come to town and we’d go out to dinner and get ice cream and just walk around and talk. He’d tell me stories and I’d listen to the same story I had heard 5 times already. He always told me things like “you can’t fool a fool” when he thought I was lying and to “ANTICIPATE” things happening, whether it be when I was playing sports or studying for a test. And of course he always told me…”a man has got to know his limitations”.

When we were finalizing the obituary the other day, I was reading everything he was involved in and was amazed. I knew he was involved with Chico State and also the Lions, but geez there were a lot more. The amazing thing to me was he never missed one of my games, performances, art shows and was home for dinner every night. He loved me so much, and I finally realized that these last couple years and am so thankful for that. I am so proud of him and love him so much, I just hope that wasn’t too much rhetoric. He would be so honored to know he now has a scholarship in honor of him and that all of you are here for him. He would have hated all this attention on him, but too bad. He deserves it more than most. I just want to close by thanking all of you for being here for him, my family and I.And I’ll see you all at the O.”

my dad is here

My dad came to visit me for Thanksgiving. Yesterday he met me at work and we tried to go to this little Bavarian place I thought he’d like, but it was packed, so we headed over to a little family owned Italian place. The food was fair, the service…horrible. We had to ask for the check 4 times. It took longer to get the check than to decide what to eat, order, get our food and eat. But oh well, it’s always good to see ol’ Dad. After that he wanted to see some old bars he used to go to when he lived in the city. We headed to Inner Richmond and walked around before deciding on an old dive bar. This really drunk guy, as in could barely stand up, walked up to me (sitting next to my dad) and asked where I got my good looks from. I told him my dad and pointed to him right next to me. This caught the guy off guard and he left me alone…until my dad went to the restroom. He came up and told me I reminded him of the lion from Wizard of Oz (because of my hair). I said ok, thanks? And my dad came out and we left.



The next day he wanted to go to breakfast so I took him to this amazing place in the Upper Fillmore called the Grove. It reminds me of a lodge at Tahoe. We ate and then he took me to Ikea to get a bookshelf. We got home and put it together, by that time it was dinnertime and we finally got to go to Suppenkuchen (the Bavarian place). It was really good, had a couple beers, he took me home and then he went home. Good to see the Pops.

moped city

kate wants to buy a moped, fix it up and then sell it to me. rock on!

i love that san francisco is so dog friendly. i love dogs.

Brenton visited me at work today and surprised me with Jonathan Owens!

what a good day. thank you God.

VH1's Best Week Ever

Yes, like the title says, this past week, including last weekend might be going down in my Best Week Ever hall of fame. It seems my month and a half of Worst Luck Ever, or so I hope, is over. Sam has been here and we had a blast. We have been eating amazing food, drinking mimosas and lots of beer. Unfortunately she left me yesterday. But thanks for visiting and please come back soon. I love you!

Last night was my first night in the house alone since my flat mates have been gone. I didn’t know what to do with myself, so I rearranged the living room by myself and dang, we have some heavy furniture. I’m a little sore but it feels good.

Today Kate came over and we took the mopeds (thanks Brenton) to get some turkey sandwiches and headed off to the beach for a little picnic. It was gorgeous out today.







Kate left, and now I’ll be going on night 2 alone. Tonight will be spent watching amazing movies (Peter Pan on VHS) and horrible ones (Grind) and reading Vogue and Ikea catalogues and probably a little cleaning, maybe some homework if I have time.

what a fabulous week

Wednesday 11/14
Class was cancelled which meant I got to hang out with Lo for her birthday. I went over to her house and brought her her present (a chia pet and a nice bottle of champagne). Lo, Sally, Eric and I all went to dinner and Dave met us there. It was fabulous. After that we went to see one of Lo’s favorite…Manchester Orchestra, where we met Zach. She bought $50 worth of merch that Steve and I took turns holding for her and then headed over to Delirium, of course.

Thursday 11/15
Lo and I went to NFG, thanks to Steve. We were both tired and there weren’t that many people in the Fillmore. The crowd wasn’t responding well, even though Jordan was trying really hard. I felt bad, we left early.

Friday 11/16
I got up early and headed to Chico. I needed to get out of the city for a minute. Sorry to everyone there. I didn’t call anyone while I was there, except the girls. Went to dinner with my dad. Had drinks with Mon, Jay and Sam.

Saturday 11/17
Got my hair did. Went out to see Jay’s house. RODE HORSES Jay. YAY! Did laundry. Picked up Sam and headed back to the city.

Sunday 11/20
Woke up early and went SAILING. YES! With my Mom, Aunty Karen and some of her friends. Oh man was it pretty. We were on a 40 foot boat with low winds. It was freezing and foggy, but worth it. We sailed over to Angel Island to do a Segway tour then sailed back. The bay was so calm, I actually fell asleep on the way back. I’m going to devote an entire blog to pictures or make a video or something.

Monday 11/21
The new Sigur Ros film is premiering tonight. I hope Sam wants to go!

love and anorexia

i ran into this picture for some reason and i had forgotten about the whole anorexica phase...this is gross, how is linsey lohan able to walk right there?


i also ran into this one and it made me miss my dog(RIP) like crazy.

quitting and starting fresh

I am quitting GB this week and starting at Azalea this week. I’ll be working for my friend Ginno at the one of the most amazing boutiques in San Francisco. Too bad I can’t afford to buy half of the clothing in there.

This last Thursday Madeline and I did a little shopping in the Castro. And yes, she got a guys number. And yes, he was gay, but baby steps right? After that I met up with Lo and we walked down to Haight for San Francisco's first RVCA art show at the spankin' new store. Free alcohol! What?! Pure craziness and fabulous art. Kate, Brenton, Sally and Joseph all came and also Sean...an ex. yay. Lo and I stayed for about an hour and then took a cab down to the Warfield to see Paramore. The cab driver decided to tell us true stories of SF cab drivers killing people. Awesome. We ran into Aaron and Zach there. Aaron took us to the side stage for a few songs, but the sound sucks from there. He had to do merch stuff, so Lo and I rocked out with the crowd for the rest of the show. Thanks Aaron for getting us in!

2 nights ago Madeline was out at the Elbo room with Rachel and she met Gordo from Lizzie McGuire.

How cute is he?
I guess he goes to UC Berkeley. I stayed home and watched Transformers. Coincidence? I think not! And I give Transformers a thumbs up. I really liked it and the saturated color through the whole thing was beautiful.

Last night we all went out to Elbo Room, Delirium, and Casa Nova. While I was waiting outside La Cumbre for Rachel and Madeline to get food some girl went to open the door and pretty much body slammed me. When I asked what that was about the guy she was with replied with.."well it IS San Francisco.." I asked what that was supposed to mean. He said that she probably did it on purpose. I asked what that meant and if she was a lesbian or something. He said no and asked where we were from as if we just wouldn’t understand unless we were from San Francisco. Rachel came in at that point and helped out. Eventually he left me alone. I think the girl was just drunk.

Tonight Zach is taking me to see Sondre Lerche.

Man, he is cute. I love me some Scandinavians.

I’m sure most of you have all heard about the huge ship running into the Bay Bridge and spilling oil into the bay. It’s killing wildlife and most of the beaches are closed. It was caused by “human error”. If not, Google it.

nice little ending to the day

i was driving to work and some dumb lady on her cell phone in her mercedes benz hit me. then tried to say i hit her and that she had a green, along with me. thats so weird that i could have hit her considering my car was tboned. i tried to call the police, but they said they wouldnt come if no one was hurt. interesting. so this streak of bad stuff happening is just never ending. im still trying to figure out what i did to deserve all this. i know its happening for a reason, im just not sure what the reason is yet. when 2 months hits its gotta stop....right?

so i skipped work, called Lo. she brought over a card, movies and food to make me feel better. so amazing. thanks Lo! all when she was feeling like crap from getting sick.

then i came home to quinn drinking, along with the girls. this continued from about 10-12. madeline and rachel split a fifth of morgan's. and we all went to bed. then i heard a lot of crashing and banging. i came out to find madeline in the bathroom, rachel in her room. both puking. so i got waters and paper towels and rubbed backs, quinn laughed. they went back to bed, and now i cant wait to go to bed. 4 hours a night for a week=tired.

visitors galore

this last week have been amazing and fun and tiring, filled with old and new friends. ill try to make this short and to the point.

monday my class was cancelled so lorrisa dragged me to a metal show her friend tour managing. we looked up the bands and were not looking forward to it at all especially because we were wearing all pastels. we got there and it was AMAZING. seriously. we had the best time. the guys were amazing, the show was soo entertaining. i stole a set list of the headlining band...Behemoth. there was a band from poland and one from france and they were so nice. over all an amazing night.

tuesday ben, trevor and peter came with emery. i got to hangout with them all day and then kate and i went to the show. the aftershow party ended up back in the bus and a dance party was started. it lasted until about 3am and then, peter, ben, kate and i went to jack in the box. ben bought us all $26 worth of food and we came back and ate it all. ben then fell asleep sitting up and we all went to bed. the next day i made then all banana bread and had the same day all over again, but with halloween and girls in some interesting costumes. emery did a hilarious show where they all dressed as their favorite bible character. then more dance party and getting home late.

the next day quinn got here with melee. quinn, chris, gabe and tony all came over. we talked and laughed and had a great time. quinn stayed over and the next day we all went to get coffee and chat it up. quinn helped us move kate and then madelines parents got here and we finished moving kate. after that we went to the melee show and had a great time. the headliner...matt nathanson did journey's dont stop believin and i was so excited we all sang out hearts out. we all went to dennys after and had lots of food. then they drove me and quinn home. and that brings us to today and now quinns staying until sunday.

merry christmas to me

i think for christmas i am going to ask for a plane ticket to New York. i hope santa makes deals with airlines.